'Cause I'm a Superwoman, yes I am, yes she is, even when I'm a mess, I still put on a vest, with an S on my chest, oh yes, I'm a Superwoman.'
These two little spots, markers, alterations in my physical being change the way I see myself. They change the way I feel about myself. How will I see myself 5 years from now, 10, 20? How many spots, markers alterations will I have then? How will I feel about myself then?
They make me wonder, how many biopsy holes will I acquire in a lifetime? If I make it through this life cancer free, how many tokens of surveillance will be left behind? How different will my chest look on my last day even if I never have cancer, which is of course the best case scenario. I contemplate buying a snug white shirt, and placing some sort of marker on my biopsy spot and recording my history externally like the pathologists mark my history internally. A Previvor Souvenir if you will.
You see, that's why Previvors have a term, have a community, why our prevention choices don't matter in the long run (surveillance vs mastectomy). We make not be sick, but we do have the scars to prove it.